you can't keep a good girl down

Today was a bad scrapping day. Real bad. Very different from the way things were last night.

I suffered two disasters today. This was the first.. My beautiful disaster...


I liked this so much. I liked everything about it.. loved the cut out, loved the idea of putting it on green cardstock and cutting it out again, loved the sparkles that I used... But there was one fatal error - it's called air bubble. I don't know how a huge air bubble got trapped underneath the photograph of my sister. I'm usually really careful about these things, but somehow it happened today. I'm so sad. I wanted to give this to Debs but I can't now. You see, having an air bubble in your altered art project is like running someone over during your practical driving test. Immediate failure.

Despite my discouragement, I tried to do another one. The second one was even more of a disaster (it wasn't beautiful this time); I threw it in the bin even before the paint was dry.

I think something is wrong with me. I'm irritable and grumpy.

I don't feel well. My shoulders ache. I'm warmish - like I'm going to get a fever. I feel vomity.

I've got too much on my mind.

Insurance agent who's supposed to call me hasn't contacted me yet. Even if he does, I have no time to meet him over this week.

My computer is lagging. I'm afraid it'll crash because I've been taxing it so much with all the photos and such.

HP photo papers are crap. HP photo printing is crap. The ink smudges every which way whenever I apply glue. Should I get the Canon Selphy?? But I want a new camera. DSLR or digital compact??

I've got peculiar pregnancy aches and I don't know whether to call my gynae or not. Don't want to be overanxious and run to her for every small thing. Gotta be tough, see. But these aches are weird. In weird places. And no one I know has experienced them before. Even the parenting/pregnancy forums don't mention this. Why? Worried.

I haven't bought comfy shoes for Easter production yet. My feet are not going to make it with my current pair. But the only one I've seen is a $100 plus pair from Americaya. Feels so excellent to wear those shoes. But so expensive - and so ugly!

The last straw - I just got an email from my leader. Says my testimony is too general and nonspecific. But how specific you want me to be, when I'm only given 45 seconds to speak? Why can't I just say that God has been good and He's been providing for me, taking care of me? Do you really think the congregation can handle the reason why conceiving this child is restoration for me? Or about how God's helped us get out of debt that runs in the tens of thousands without explaining why it got there in the first place? Help. I can't do this.

Too many things. I'm just going to sleep.